I know I am random here. It's 2 plus. Crazy me. I know I am mentally and physically tired. But I just don't have the mood to go to sleep.
No idea why I am still awake right now. Friends ask me why I haven't sleep. I thought them no mood and they shoot me say sleep where got need mood one. But seriously when u feel the same u will know it too.
I just had no mood for anything. Really.
Even though I told myself hundreds or even millions of time some courage and pros words I still feel haiz........ And tears started.
Even though it isn't a big issue after all lah. But it affect me. Disheartening and a blow on me!

Well. Thinking of whether to upload this post. Coz I scared offence people? But I have no meaning plus after all blog is where I show my unhappiness. :(((((((

I need a corner for myself.
I need to chill.
I want to scream out loud.
I want to eat ice-cream.
I need to change myself.

YES~
For those who understand me well should know I am blogging right now.
I am just in a mood for nothing. Nothing except crying.
Why can't I always get what I want!!!! Ever since young.
:(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((
Working so hard for nth. I just can't stop thinking of this.
Why am I always so unlucky.
WHY!~
Is it because I am being too noisy in school? disturbing? irritating? or is it because it's a retribution/revenge to me for rejecting yet opting again for this. OMG~ Somemore just tell me the reasons.7 out of 15 places that I wanted yet I was the 6 chance. :( HOW SAD! HOW NOT TO CRY!
Yes. I cried and is crying badly now.
 LO isn't what I wanted to. Just the lecturer office is good.

Friends say I should just do my best. Agree. Maybe I should really and can do this for now. ALL I WISH IS TO PASS THE JOURNEY SAFELY THROUGHOUT.


Grats to those who went RWS and white sands. Cool places to go. Have fun. :)



My song is making me so so so sad.
I need to chill.
I need to get away from here before the post get longer.
The only way for me is probably to cheer up.
Thanks for those concern though friends

Name: Chai SiawShi
Nick: Bai chai
Age: 18
Fav Colors: Purple
13th February 1990
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